Last Night's Meeting

For those who prayed, thank you. It went a little better than I'd expected, but there is a ways yet to go. I'm still so weak, so human, that I can't just get over myself no matter how much I think about what God has done for me. But I made the first step, and I apologized for my behavior, which is something I didn't think I could do. Sometimes, God's grace is not needed for us to forgive others, but for us to admit that we have wronged them. Our pride needs to be broken, and one of the quickest ways to do that is to admit to someone that you've wronged them.

Last night was hard, and our relationship is not yet restored (and may never be as close as it once was), but it was such a valuable and sorely needed lesson for me, not only about my pride but about reconciliation. It's so hard to stay angry at someone when you admit you've wronged each other. I think anger is only possible when you feel superior to someone in a way.

Anyway, thank you again for your prayers. I pray that God continues to guide my steps and lead me ever closer to His righteousness.